softandslow85 (softandslow85) wrote in the_h,

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miserably waiting for six a.m.

longtime lurker, first time poster...

anyone ever notice how time seems to crawl when you're waiting to re-opiate? i'm not going to be able to sleep a wink tonight. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it...It could be worse. I could be in extreme agony, instead of just unpleasant discomfort. At least I know that I'll be okay come tomorrow morning (that is, if nothing goes drastically wrong).  I wish I lived in the 1900s, where a visit to the local apothecary could safely and reliably result in the procurement of what i need.  i hate the stress surrounding all of this, i just like the result, when i finally obtain at home, at total peace, chin pressed to my chest, free of all pain or anxiety, floating in blissful apathy, my cat purring in my lap, both of us drifting in and out of gentle shallow sleep for hours and hours...

i am going to drink more wine, although it is doing little but making me feel like i'm going to puke. i had an old friend who swore by pot at times like these, but i personally loathe and despise pot and wouldn't smoke it if it was the last drug on just makes me paranoid and gives me heart palpitations...
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